Friday, August 15, 2008

thoughts

Today I feel very pregnant, and I realize I still have 10 more weeks (or more) to go. It wasn't too happy about that. What am I going to do? And is this feeling uncomforable easier than taking care of a newborn, I still need to potty train Sam, the kids will be in school, Chris will be gone on interviews, it could very well put me over the edge. I will have to look VERY deep inward to find some strength, Lots of prayers needed!!!

The kids begin school in 1 week, they got their teacher letters and next week we will get backpacks (no school supplies as the school provides them :) and get a little more organized (I hope!!)
What I will not miss when the kids are back in school:
a million popsicle sticks all over
LOUD
a million band-aid wrappers from the war wounds
LOUD
LOTS more laundry especially from the hundred beach towels that are so large I am wondering why one small child may need 5 or 6 of these to dry off with
A very MESSY house
Bickering amongst the children and me with them
Chaos
unfinished craft projects, glue, paint, and other concoctions that make a MESS
sweeping, vacuuming, etc about 10 times a day


but I will miss playing in the backyard, eating outside, their plays and productions, watching them be kids, their help with the little two monsters, staying up late watching movies (olympics), sleeping in, Anna's pancakes, playing chase, crafts, going to Hershey Park, NO activities to taxi them to, and just them.

For the last two summers we have committed to nothing, no classes, and it has been great. because they are only kids for such a short while and during school year we are so busy, I am sure we will not be able to do this forever so I am trying to enjoy the small and sometimes far between sweet moments and hope the kids will have happy childhood memories.

And I am thinking I love white, maybe because we have usually lived in a smaller house and white is clean and stuff, but I think I will need to get a wash on my kitchen cabinets or something because they are disgusting, it could be the dirty feetprints from climbing up the cabinets or my kids cooking projects. I am SO excited to move into a bigger house in the near future, I almost don't believe it is going to happen. I would like to think you (I) can be happy in any circumstance, but I think I might be a little happier in a slightly larger home with a bit of privacy. Maybe my house won't look so unkempt also if all my stuff was in a bigger place??

3 comments:

Hansen Family said...

Loved the post:) I am also ready for school to start. Does the school still supply the kids stuff? If you need help with the baby let me know:)

Lily Sunshine said...

I loved this as my BABY is starting Kindergarten and the 3 hours alone might just do me in (not used to quiet or ACTUALLY hearing my own voice).

I love the whole "bigger house" issue. Yes, I think you will feel better since a bigger house helps diffuse the messes into more locations and allows more open spaces with nothing in them!!! I am excited for you and can't wait to hear about when this happens. Until then, you KNOW I understand about smaller homes after living in Cali!!! VIVA BIG HOMES to diffuse the mess!!!!

Vinnie said...

Kara moved from a BIG house to a minute house, and she is going crazy. Kids and stuff everywhere. I wish I was closer and would totally hang out with you. But school starts next week for me too, and then I can get on with my life. Any promising places from Chris's interviews? Where is my little Nikki going to end up? Hopefully close!!!