My whole life, this is how I deal with stress and things I need to do...ignore them. Trash!! I am moving in a little over a week with odds and ends to take care of, and I am sitting here on hold with a company to cancel services. I am sad to leave. I am sad for my kids because I was the new kid many times (okay I still feel that way) and it isn't always great. I am bitter about my house not selling, annoyed about almost everything. too much worry to deal with so I just try to ignore it, but it is NOT going away!!

I feel like my life is full of chaos pretty much all of the time. my kids are crazy, Chris and I fuss at one another more than usual, and I just want to be happy and at peace with things. I want my kids to be happy and confident, and well my wish list is too long. why so many struggles...or is it just how I deal (or don't) with them.

anyway finally not on hold!