We still aren't sure what to name the baby....we are still not ready for the baby, she has some clothes, have we put up the bassinet, bought her diapers, new baby lotions & sweet smelling baby wash??? No, and now I see I have 24 days until my due date, my Chris is leaving to go out of town for 8 days on Thursday and though I have NEVER gone into labor early or on time for that matter, still a little fear that he will not be here when the baby arrives. I feel like I need to constantly clean my house and that is making me tired. I have found that washing the walls and ceiling fans and moulding...well I don't usually do that and perhaps I should have. Jakob has started artwork all over the walls and recently the couch to add to the list of tasks.
So here are the names we like
Magnolia (maggie)
Caroline
Sarah Kate
Amelia
Claire
Charlotte
Ellie
and Chris has mentioned some others, however I find most ridiculous so refuse to even consider them.
I feel extremely overwhelmed with trying to please all of my children as the guilt of having yet another child to take away more attention from them, especially the oldest who I feel is on her way to a nervous breakdown (perhaps from my example?!) It's just babies need so much time in the beginning and moms are tired, but the other ones need time too...I cannot find enough time to accomplish all the things that I want to get done. I am not good at letting some things go, like the house cleaning. you know that poem about letting the dust and mess be I'm rocking my baby, and babies don't keep. how do you do that? I cannot handle the messy junk everywhere and sometimes put that before more important things...I was mean mommy yesterday with the kids AGAIN as the playroom was a disaster, I wish I would just stop getting on to them all the time and have fun with them instead. I am so impatient and want to be a little more easy going, but how???? Not sure how to find that balance.
I do have all the boys halloween costumes and am excited for that coming up, the ladies have not decided what they want to be....witch, Sharpay, Nancy Drew, photographer, a ghost, little Miss Muffett, that is the latest list good thing most of them are pretty simple. We missed Halloween last year since we were in MS for Ben & Angela's wedding so this will be first for Nollie, and maybe if the baby arrives by then hers too.
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I just think you are a wonderful mother. But I know exactly how feel - I have been there so many times myself. I go back and forth, I either and OCD about the house, which then I become cranky mom about everthing little mess or I just let it all go and spend all my free time playing with the kids and the house looks disgusting and the kids don't have socks to wear to school. It is so hard to find that balance. I hate when I look back on my OCD days I feel like the meanest crankiest mom. But then I don't like either having to spend the next 2-3 days digging out of my piles of clothes and dishes. I try now not to stress during the day. I do try to take time early in the morning first thing and get a load of dishes and clothes started, then at nap time I can fold a load and put away dishes. Then I try to let it go for the rest of the day, until after they go to bed. Then I clean the kitchen and do another load, because I have to do a minimum of 2 loads a day just so I don't get buried. Then I try to pick something else to do for the night. I have tried giving the kids chores, because I feel it is important for them to take responsibility and be part of the family, but I have to say I am not alwyas good about making them do their chores. It's easier said then done - don't stress yourself or the kids out - and that's what I try to remember when I stress out, I stress out my kids and it is not the fun lowing warm house that I want it to be.
Oh we are all like that crazy mom sometimes:) It will be crazy but worth it. I KNOW you will do great look at your other kids:) There great.
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